For how shall I go up to my father if the lad is not with me, lest perhaps I see the evil that would come upon my father?”
Parallel translations
- WEB For how will I go up to my father, if the boy isn’t with me? — lest I see the evil that will come on my father.”
- KJV For how shall I go up to my father, and the lad be not with me? lest peradventure I see the evil that shall come on my father.
- BSB For how can I go back to my father without the boy? I could not bear to see the misery that would overwhelm him.”
- NASB For how shall I go up to my father if the boy is not with me? I fear that I may see the evil that would overtake my father.”
- NLT For how can I return to my father if the boy is not with me? I couldn’t bear to see the anguish this would cause my father!”
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Quick answer
Judah cannot bear to face his father without Benjamin and witness the grief it would cause. Love for his father completes his selfless appeal.
Overview
Judah ends by saying he could not endure returning to see the ruin his father's grief would bring. His concern is wholly for Jacob and Benjamin, not himself. This selfless love so moves Joseph that he can no longer maintain his disguise, and reconciliation breaks forth.
Cross-references & the web
Cross-references · 8
- Esth 8:6For how can I endure to see the evil that would come to my people? How can I endure to see the destruction of my relatives?”
- 1 Sam 2:33–34The man of yours, whom I don’t cut off from my altar, will consume your eyes and grieve your heart; and all the increase of your house will die in the flower of their age.
- Ps 116:3The cords of death surrounded me, the pains of Sheol got a hold of me. I found trouble and sorrow.
- Exod 18:8Moses told his father-in-law all that Yahweh had done to Pharaoh and to the Egyptians for Israel’s sake, all the hardships that had come on them on the way, and how Yahweh delivered them.
- Ps 119:143Trouble and anguish have taken hold of me. Your commandments are my delight.
- 2 Chr 34:28“Behold, I will gather you to your fathers, and you will be gathered to your grave in peace. Your eyes won’t see all the evil that I will bring on this place and on its inhabitants.”’” They brought back word to the king.
- Job 31:29“If I have rejoiced at the destruction of him who hated me, or lifted up myself when evil found him
- Jer 52:10–11The king of Babylon killed the sons of Zedekiah before his eyes: he killed also all the princes of Judah in Riblah.
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